April 23rd, 2017: Stuck in the Middle with You

Well, well, well...I find myself hijacked.  I am in an unusual situation where my boss is also - technically - one of my supervisees.  She wears two different roles - and I don't

think either of us knows the best way to move forward. I found myself in a dither last night before going to bed - couldn't readily fall asleep - head spinning.  And here I am on a Sunday morning, still trying to make sense of it.  


Hmmm...haven't been in this sort of space for a long time.  It's a clear sign that my boundaries have

been crossed, and that I am not centered...connected to Spirit in the way that I would like.  That's what I mean by "hijacked."






It is difficult to keep someone "in the loop" when their orbit takes them "out of the loop" for much of the time. 

Conversation does not stop when the "errant orbiter" leaves the grid.  Those of us remaining in closer, more synchronized orbits carry on.  We continue to discuss.  And we thoroughly and, almost painfully, thresh a situation until we are very, very done.  


At some point in time, the decisions we make regarding our own orbital paths will need to be enough.  And it seems that, as the director, I need to be the one to declare "enough" so that my staff and I can "be done."  Clear communication paths that are more easily identifiable need to be established:  I need to be clear when I am speaking with my boss - and when I am speaking with my supervisee. Or - if there is only one role, i.e., "boss," then I need to be clear about how I will maintain my integrity within that encounter.

It is a tricky road for me: receiving mentorship while still
owning directorship.  Listening for advice and

suggestions, yet not always taking them.  Finding that path - that unclear pathwhere each moment will yield its own decision that will be for the greatest good for all concerned - seems like it will take a little bit of both: listening for mentoring wisdom, yet making the best possible decision based on the information I have. 


And perhaps that is where my learning is...accepting that the path may lie in the process of discovery - of finding my way each time - that results in an outcome specific to each instance - and in the long run - for the growth of all concerned.  Perhaps the steps are these:  
 

Get Grounded. 

Ask, "What is the Best Course of action for the Greatest Good of All Concerned?  What must I do to contribute?" 

Then, Seek Spirit's Voice in the Silence....

and Listen.