I had a draft that had been sitting, waiting to be published, since September 18th. No time. Work is demanding. Staying prepared for all of my courses - two of which are new - is challenging. All of my work that I've done over the summer in support of my health is slowly falling by the wayside, and gets less attention than it has. I don't like this. Either I have to change within my present situation, or my context has to change. I don't see my present job context changing in the near future. So, I'm going to state this here: I need to begin the search for another job. Stating here will help make me accountable to myself. The trick, I think, is in fully and clearly describing what I want to do. Go back to clinical work? Find an academic position where I can get the mentoring I need for my scholarly endeavors? Open my own business again? What is it that I want to do?
More needs to be written in this area. I'm not sure how to carve out the time to "Listen" more. However, there is no other way, but to listen.
Slight interruption: both my daughter and I were awake at 3:45 this morning - although we both went back to bed. How weird. However, now that we are up for our day, she called to me: the moon is in a full eclipse. What a joy to see with her! There is just a small crescent left on the right side. Soon the shadow will cover the whole moon, and then after that, the light will be begin to shine again on the left side. The moon again will be shining full light.
And isn't this how it is with us humans, as well? Periods of darkness, followed by light? Ebb and flow, light and dark? And yet - for me - even in darkness I can feel the presence of The Light.
I am a Lucky Duck.
