My first post regarding my unfavorable promotion portfolio news seemed more balanced. My second one was more angry - but seemed more to the point. In the end of that second post, I acknowledged what I know are some of my weak areas, but also acknowledged that my audience may simply not be in my playing field.
There is some power in acknowledging that my context bears some of the burden in the difference in "fields." Talent in one's own back yard often goes overlooked. I have overlooked my own - my talents within my own yard (front and back) - due to my inability to step into and own who I am; to set boundaries so that the place where I leave off and the next person begins is more clear; to value my own opinion of myself as highly as I have valued the opinions of others.
There is something to be said about living one's truth with humility and strength - open to the opinion of others, yet being clear when those opinions are uninformed…about walking away from those uninformed opinions with grace; about pursuing one's inner truth and finding a place where that truth can be manifested in this real, physical world, so that all can benefit.
The anger in my second post is not an enemy - it may even be an angel who helps me own the gifts that I have been given. In any case, it is a heartfelt warning that I may be dangerously close to accepting someone else's truth as my own, and a "shot across the bow" to hunker down with Spirit to ensure that I'm not giving away essential pieces of what I need to do the best work I can on this Earth, right here, right now.
Those two posts?
I am seeing progress.
I am seeing balance.
And that's a good thing.
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